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louisehernandez

i had bad day today...super depressing....

i wish i could change things...i wish i could go back in time...

i'm at my lowest...sobra...i never thought that i'll put myself in this kind of situation...

sobrang sakit lang tlga...:C

i need some huggin' and some lovin'...

i miss my friends....

i miss my life...:C

what do i have to do to make things better?

any suggestions???

louisehernandez

Six months have past and i haven't done any blogging...must have been really busy...or must have been saturated...nah...i dont think so...i guess...there comes a point in your life when you just don't want to share any of the happenings with other people...not that you dont want them involved or anything...you just want to keep silent and be done with everything with just yourself...im not goin' into any suicide attempts...totoo!!!hehe...i guess i'm maturing na....naks...hehe...thats what "mature" people do...they tend not to share things thats been happening to others not unless they're their family or friends...they draw borderlines for whatever they have to share...afraid of whatever other people would think of them when they began to pour their hearts out...such tragic scene that we can't express ourselves by not being judged...hay ewan....i'm at a point in my life where i want to share a lot of things with other people yet i'm too afraid of being judged...i dont know...i'm 22 years old...i should know what to do...**sigh**i must have a problem.....HELP!!!!!!!

louisehernandez

1.  Where will you spend Valentine's?

*** i still don't know...hurry up dessa!hehehe...

2.  With whom will you spend it?

*** officemate....hehehe....napakloser ko na nito...des tara na nga alis na tyo!!hehehe...

3.  Would you rather get chocolates or flowers?

*** a big warm hug would really make my day....

4.  Do you think this Valentine's Day will be happier than last year's?

***same old same old...

5.  How did you spend it last year?

*** went to g4 nkithird wheel sa magbf/gf kong pinsan na pilit ayaw akong iwan...ang loser na nmn....hahaha...

6.  Will you be wearing Valentine's colors like red or pink?

*** nope...

7.  Will you be greeting your ex's on Valentine's?

*** Yes. No. Maybe.i dont know.

8.  What is that you hate about Valentine's?

***  Wala nmn...ok lang cya...hehehe....

9.  Do you think that Valentine's is a really romantic ocassion?

*** cguro...ewan...hahha....

10.  Honestly, do you think Valentine's Day is really important or just stupid commercialization?

*** tama lang pero not that super important....have fun na lang....make the most out it....echos!!!hahaha....

louisehernandez

yesterday or i guess the other day i got the chance to read one of my friends blog and she was talking about not hearing or reading anything from me for months....well here it is..hehehe...i've kept myself busy the last 4 months of 2006 by just working...uh...well...working as in job  and uhmm....slightly adjusting with a new then "lovelife" i dont really know how to call it...hehe...well..it didn't work the way i would have wanted it to be...guess we both have different priorities in life...everythings good though...im back to my old routine...im still working for the same company for 9 months now...can't believe that in 3 more months it will be my first year working...anyway...i asked my boss for a transfer in another department just because i plan to study this coming school year...i wish that everything would turn out for the best...goodness..i miss blogging...miss ko na ung pakikialam ng buhay ng may buhay...hehe...

louisehernandez

just got out of the hospital this afternoon...yes..in as much as i really don't want to go to a hospital i did...i had a freaking headache plus this vertigo thing were whenever i would move its as the whole floor im standing on is also moving...that really sucks big time...my mom and dad weren't even here in manila...thankfully my grandaunt was with me and ready to go to the hospital...as i was about to leave i started to feel as if im going to throw up and i did...finally...went to st. lukes had myself "observed" by the residents...i couldn't spend the night at home feeling like the world has crashed itself into me...and so i asked the doctor if i could stay for the night...they actually allowed me to do so...astig! cute pa ung nurse ko promise! they said it was this vertigo thing not much of an emergency but still quite dangerous in some cases not in mine though...i got a room at 12 midnight...plus i got an IV...didn't know that i would get one...its been a while since i last had one...i just didn't look when that syringe or needle was about to enter my vein...im really weak when it comes to blood...sunday came and i got to rest the whole day....ate a lot of things...hehehe...lakas ko kumain...my dad even said that the reason i wanted to be admitted was just for me to have some good food...hehehe...partly i guess...plus the cute nurse...and cute tlga promise...chinito and moreno...kulang nga lang sa height...hehehe...ano beh louise!!!pero promise...i wasn't really feeling good that night...sobra!!!hay..well...it looks that im all good again...nakakapagblog na nga ako eh...malamang...hehehe...well...funny thing was dame pla concerned...thanx for the texts and calls...smooches and hugs to u all...ciao!!!  

louisehernandez

yep...you heard that right? have you ever experienced something for which you have no control over? i mean your mind says something but your heart says the other way...this really sucks...in as much i'd want to tell in detail i'd rather not...i think i had fallen in love again with someone im not supposed to fall in love with...u get what i mean?things are way way different...our replationships a little bit peculiar...and i dont know why...i know that i should do the right thing but still my heart keeps on tellling me not to...still trying to make excuses for the behavior of such...i dont know why i become a victim of such one too many times...they say once bitten twice shy...but that cliche doesn't even apply to me...i just hate myself right now...pffft....what have i got myself into???argh!!!again....im starting to become paranoid again...maybe i have stereotyped relationships again and my conclusion clash with whats really happening...hay....i must sleep now....please pray for me... 

louisehernandez

[THE FRUITS OF YOUR LABOR( things you can't live without)]: family, friends, cellfone and alcohol...im an o.c. sorry....

[Something important on your desk]: cell phone....

When you sleep you wear: pj's

[If you could afford it at the moment, you would buy]: a lime green beetle...

[If there were no side effects, you would enjoy being addicted to]: coffee...but still im addicted to it...forget the side effects...lol....

[A time when you purposly hurt someone emotionally]: back in college when i snobbed someone...though he is still good to me until now....

[A time you accidentally hurt someone emotionally]: first year college...but i forgot what it was all about....

[One person you have killed in your thoughts]: nada....

FRIENDS:

[Three traits you look for in a friend]: have a sense of humor...god fearing and loyal....

[Who makes you laugh most often]: pillar..i really miss her...

[A friend who you can tell anything]: patch and jenny...

[A friend you can go to for advice]: jenny....

[The best piece of advice you had been given]: do whatever makes you happy but use some sense...

[The friend who uses most of your energy]: i dont know...

EGO

[Your 3 best qualities]: makulet,loyal and good listener....

[Your 3 worst qualities]: i have a short attention span...really...im a procrastinator...i dwell on the negative side effects of things...

[A compliment that makes you blush]: i dont know

[The greatest physical pain you ever endured]: my freakin' allergies...argh!!!

[The greatest emotional pain you ever endured]: falling in love alone...

[Moment you are most ashamed of]: nada...

[Your best physical feature]: my height???lol...

[Who/What makes you happy]: my friends and ***** hahaha...

[Who/what makes you sad]: nasty people....makes me think the world really has gone really bad....

EMOTIONS

[Emotion you hide most]: sadness...

[The emotion you tend to experience most]: frustration....

[When you are angry you need]: to sleep...yup...thats all it takes....

[When you are sentimental you need]: to sleep again...

[When you are in love you need]: affection....

[One of your most peaceful memories]: right before christmas last year...was with my friends all night and nothing went wrong...we had the best time ever....

[One of your most tragic memories]: family deaths....dont really like that...

One of your angriest memories]: rather personal i cant tell....ask me if you want to know....

[A memory that makes you laugh]: a lot in my college days....

[A memory that makes you happy]: when i wake up every saturday morning and seeing my dad and hugging him....

LOVE

[Something someone can say or do that you find extremely attractive]: show their intelligence and sense of humor....

[something someone can say or do that you find unattractive]: smoke and act like rabbit in heat...

[Two things appealing about people]: being communicative and friendly for some....

[A personality trait you find appealing]: god fearing...

[Your secret passion]: observing people...

[What you enjoy most about having a committed relationship]: the company of the other person and the understanding that binds the two of you together..

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a n g e r section.
do you have a quick temper?: i guess i do...
what do you do when you're mad?: just have a big sigh and go back with what im doing...

what's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?: i threw a pillow at my bedroom door....

if you can take back time, would you have never done this?: nah...no one was hurt...i just got to release the tension...

ever made anyone cry when you were mad?: yup...

ever physically hurt someone when you were mad?: yup...my brother when we were kids...

do you curse when you're mad?: sometimes...

c r y i n g section.
when was the last time you really cried your heart out?: hmm...five or six months ago....
ever cried yourself to sleep?: yes...
ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: yep....
ever cried over the opposite sex?: yup...
do you cry when you get an injury?: no...not until i see some blood gushing...
do certain songs make you cry? which ones: nope...
can you make yourself cry?: nah...

p a i n section.
what's the hardest thing you've ever had to go through?: im just starting with my life...i dont think i've encountered anything worth that category yet...

what's the worst thing you've done to yourself?: nothing...
what's the worst thing you've done to somebody else?: belittled someone...
ever had a painful break up?: yup...
what about the old 'pain for pleasure'?: i dont know what this means...
how depressed can you get?: really depressed as in i gain weight...lol...
do you inflict pain on yourself?: no...

h a p p y section.
are you normally a happy person?: i try to be....
what can make you happy?: family and friends....
do you wish you were happier?: yep...sometimes...but its all good now...
what makes you the happiest?: my friends...
is being happy overrated?: no...
what about being with your friends, does that make you happy?: yup...
can music make you happy?: all the time...lol...

l o v e section.
how many times have you had your heart broken?: three times...
do you still have feelings for any of your old significant others?: something will always be there...but not as strong as before...
have you ever loved someone so much, that you'd die for them?:hell no...
did you ever love a girl/guy, tell them that, and only got 'thanks' as a reply?: lol...yes...
ever loved someone so much, it hurt and made you cry?: yup...
has anyone besides your friends and family ever said 'i love you' to you?: yes...
ever stopped a relationship because they didn't say 'i love you'?: no...

h a t e section.
who do you actually hate?: plastics...stupid people...rumor mongerers...
ever made a hit list?: nope...
have you ever been on a hit list?: not that i know of...
are you a mean bully?: i'ld like to think that im not...lol...
do you hate any one that breaks your heart?: no...
do you hate George Bush?: on somethings....yeah....
George Bush is so overrated...: whats that???how do you go about this one???lol...

s e l f - e s t e e m section.
is your self-esteem extremely low?: not much....just enough....lol....
do you believe in yourself?: sometimes....
when people say they think you are pretty, do you deny you are?: usually...
are you one of those idiots that think they are ugly, dumb, and fat?: haha yahh... exclude the dumb part though...
ever wanted to kill yourself because you thought you weren't good enough?: no...i would never think of doing that....
are you happy with who you are?: yup
do you wish you can be someone else?: sometimes...

louisehernandez

pooooffff...

just woke up after sleeping for like just an hour...hay....i dont know if i'll ve even be prolific tomorrow...i've got some slight fever still and a sore throat...dang it!

wednesday was good....got to see a friend...finally....hahaha...nice hanging out with him...though i thought he's gonna be really old but not really....i'ld say he's a little bit mature...a little too worldly...hahaha....just kidding...i guess he won't be reading this nmn...nyaks!!!

my legs are really sore right now...pffftt...got a lot of walking yesterday...pfffttt again....

overall rating: hmmm...ok lang....haha...pendong lois may kalbo! cnong kalbo?joke! it was nice....it was good..it was fun...ang halay nmn ng comment....no really eto seryoso na...ah ewan....hahaha....small steps louise...

gracias!

smooches!!!